"Okay, Ross. Ross, okay, listen. What we have is amazing but I do not want to have everything decided for me. I spent my whole life like that. It's what I had with Barry; that was one of the reasons I left. I like not knowing right now and I'm sorry if that scares you but if you want to be with me, you have to deal with that."

Rachel Green, F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Season 2, Episode 20

I know what I'm doing is good...

...but I can't shake the feeling that it might be turning me into someone I don't want to be.

Okay, it's not that deep... It actually isn't deep at all. It's about smoking. I haven't had a single stick of cigarette since Monday last week and it's the longest I lasted without one since I started smoking again in 2011. It's done a lot of good for me: I can smell what our neighbor is cooking and I can actually differentiate what's salty and what's saltier. Plus, I don't pant whenever I go up the stairs anymore.

So why the hell am I complaining? Well, for one, my patience got shorter. I know that doesn't make sense. I don't get the connection either; I just noticed I got a lot more irritable without nicotine in my system sheeshgetoffmybackwillyougod!

*deep breath*

And second, I've been eating a lot lately. I eat when I wake up, then I eat after I run/bike, then I eat lunch, then I eat again at 3pm then again at 5, then I eat dinner and then right before I sleep. I don't eat small portions each time, no. I eat meal-sized meals!

I got this oral fixation thing real bad. If I had a boyfriend were with the boyfriend all the time, he'd probably be the meal I'll be devouring, if you know what I mean.

At least that's not going to make me fat...

Zalora Site-Wide Flash Sale

Kicking off 2013 with a bang, ZALORA brings you a week of their popular, site-wide flash sales!

Getting an early start on their Spring cleaning, ZALORA is running hour long flash sales through the end of January. At random hours for the rest of the month, ZALORA will be offering an extra 13% off anything in the store. From the hottest new releases to the best of last season’s styles, get it at a ZALORA flash sale and get it for less.

Since their launch in February 2012, ZALORA has come a long way but they’ve never forgotten their promise to offer the best products at the best prices out there. “We’ve had so many great new products and brands come on the site during 2012,” said Co-Founder Paulo Campos, “Even though we’re looking forward to all the wonderful new stuff we have in store for 2013, we figured, ‘Why not give something special back to all the people who helped make our first year such a success?’”

Keep your computers glued to www.ZALORA.com.ph, because while they’re busy cleaning out their extensive closets, you’re sure to find something you’ll love.

Marathon-ing FRIENDS made me think of boobs.

So I just started downloading and watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S lately because I only got to have the Internet all to myself when DLSU and CSB started school. I'm not even halfway through the second season but I do have to ask this: Why doesn't Rachel/Jennifer Aniston wear bra through most of season one plus the nine episodes of season 2 I've watched?

Now that I think about it, Allison Hannigan doesn't wear bra in some episodes of HIMYM, too. Is it a normal thing in other countries? Because if it is, I sure hope it becomes normal here in the Philippines, too. I know a whole bunch of girls - myself included - who would want to be "free" without being stared at, if you know what I mean...

Yes.

This is me. I don't know who drew this but she got everything right. Even the "I feel nothing." part.

Great job, Jenny.

"Sometimes things have to fall apart to make way for better things...

Zoey Pierson, How I Met Your Mother Season 6 Episode 17

Let's All Start the Year Right with Sulit.com.ph!

Being a believer of the Law of Attraction, I came to love making wish lists, vision boards and the like.  I might be 23 days "late" in posting my New Year's (material) wish list for some of you but as we always say, better late than never (applies to pregnancy scares as well).

So in true Aleigna Tejada fashion, here are my top 10 must-haves from Sulit.com.ph!

Kean Cipriano makalaglag-panty photo time!

From Kean Cipriano's Instagram account

Edit (8:05pm January 24, 2013): This photo is currently my laptop, BB and Samsung wallpaper. I am officially addicted to this guy's body...and jawline.

Ina Kapatid Anak's Diego Medina

So I was watching Ina Kapatid Anak awhile ago when this Diego Medina character caught my attention. I have this thing for bad boys and his character in the series is definitely one. By the way he looks at Celine (played by Kim Chiu), you'd know he's the bad guy.

Anyway, here's a photo of him:

He's Alex Medina. Apparently, he's one of Pen Medina's sons and is an award-winning indie film actor.

Will definitely watch Ina Kapatid Anak every night starting tonight. There's someone to look forward to...

On Running

I have an on-and-off relationship with running since I started 5 years ago. Of course, the longest I went without it was in 2010, when I got pregnant and didn't get back right away because of my c-section. My "big comeback" happened February last year, when I was on a depression spree.

I started running this morning again, with the same reason I had last year: I've been down in the dumps lately. I think that the reason why I always do this whenever I feel down is because I get to listen to what He has to say. I may not be prayerful but I still believe in Him and I turn to Him in times of triumph and pain. Plus, running gives me this natural high afterwards that cannot be fulfilled by a glass of Jack Coke.

Just kidding. A glass of Jack Coke will definitely give me any kind of high I want to have.

But it isn't healthy at all...or is it?

I need to obsess over a new guy.

I definitely do. Someone who is so unreachable, I won't get hurt in any way possible. Someone who's too out of my league that I won't have a problem making a fool out of myself whenever he's around. Someone who doesn't even know I exist so I don't have to feel bad if he doesn't reply/favorite/retweet my tweets or notice my flirtatious comments on his photos. (Owws, may pinanghuhugutan...)

And I think I found him:

This is Adam Gallagher. I saw him first on Lookbook's Tumblr page a few days ago and his personal style caught my attention. As I've said here countless of times, I am not a fashionable person nor do I follow any fashion trend but a well-put together guy catches my attention. I may not know what's in or what's not in menswear, I do know what clothes I want a guy to wear and Adam (Naks, first name basis...) definitely wears those kinds of clothes (Eh?).

And then after browsing through his blog, I Am Galla, I realized he's actually good-looking. He has this pretty boy face but his facial hair gives him the badass, don't-mess-with-me aura that I like. The best of both worlds! Score!

Plus, by the looks of his posts, he's a goofy guy who loves sunglasses. I don't know much about him yet, okay. I just started following his blog this morning...

Anyway, I hope he gets my mind off of some people in my life that I should be "getting rid" of. If I'm lucky, once they're out, my self-esteem might make a comeback.

Sorry if this post is all over the place. I'm so pissed off at something I did early this morning that I can't organize my thoughts.

Edit: Adam Gallagher just posted this photo on his Instagram page (12:30pm):

Pagbigyan na, malamig naman...

Suntok sa Buwan is THE song, okay?

I know I said here that Akap is THE song but I stand corrected. It's Session Road's Suntok sa Buwan! Every damn word in the song is perfect to what I am going through right now. Ugh! How can I not have this in my laptop?! If I didn't have that random LSS today, I wouldn't have realized that it's THE song and I wouldn't have known that I don't have a copy of it.
Hindi ko 'to gusto pero wag kang lalayo... Ka-ka-ka-kaboom!

Rivalry: Ateneo - La Salle The Musical Round 2!

Yes, I've seen Rivalry: Ateneo - La Salle The Musical already same month last year but when I've learned that they will be running a second set of shows at the Meralco Theater on January 25-February 17, it took me a millisecond to decide that I need to see it again. If there's one thing I know, it's when Ateneo and La Salle is going to butt heads, you have to see it...even if you've already seen it.

Besides, a bunch of new faces will grace the stage this time around and one of the people behind Rivalry promised changes from the one they've shown last year so those who watched it already will still get to enjoy the second round of shows.

If you want to know what's it all about, head on over to the nearest TicketWorld outlet or call 891-9999 to reserve your tickets for one of Rivalry: Ateneo - La Salle The Musical Round 2's shows on January 25-February 17 at the Meralco Theater. Like Rivalry's Facebook page for details and updates on the upcoming shows.

Can't wait to see the show again!

#64. I find rockers' talking voices sexy.

Ah, teenage love...

I am not a fan of either of them nor am I a fan of their loveteam but I can't help but shriek whenever I see them on TV. I know I've bashed Daniel Padilla for looking like a lesbian before but oh man, it doesn't matter because when someone looks at you like that *points at the photos*, you know it's love.
And damn it, can Frustration* a guy just look at me like that while I check myself out in the mirror? I know it's gonna make me feel really uncomfortable but I just want someone to ogle at me for once, okay?
*A guy I used to talk about in my Multiply blog

Common friends (sometimes) suck.

One thing I hate about following common friends with my ex on social networking sites is that I get to see his activities with his significant other. It's not that I am bitter over the break-up because I'm actually the one who broke up with him... It's just that I don't think I'm completely over him. I still get jealous over the fact that he didn't do half of the things he's doing now with his girlfriend when we were still together. Partying, drinking, spending the holidays with me, etc. I mean, if it isn't that hard, why didn't he do those things with me when we were still together?

Don't get me wrong, though. I don't want to get back together with him. I just wished he (or someone else) did those things with me on a regular basis because I am a clingy girlfriend (or fling) like that.

And of course, I love my friends. Yes, even those that link him to me but I hate Facebook, Instagram and Twitter for sending me notifications about his dinner with her family.

The downside of breastfeeding...

Ever since I gave birth, I became an advocate of breastfeeding and why shouldn't I? I've saved close to a hundred thousand pesos in the last two years I am doing it, it's healthy no matter what I do, Brianna has one of the toughest immune systems among all the babies I know and it keeps me (looking) fit for a mom who doesn't work out and diet plus I don't have to lug around an additional bag/cooler whenever Brianna and I go out for the bottles, water and formula. It's one of the most practical - and if you ask me, the most loving - decision a mom will ever make.

I've just recently doubted if I can actually stand by my decision. I looked like this while "trekking" the streets of Jestra in Tagaytay:

Photo taken by Jill Cruz

My friends and I slept over in Tagaytay for a much-needed bonding (for all of us) and a long-awaited break from mommy duties (for me) last weekend. I knew I won't get to breastfeed Brianna but I thought "Meh, isang araw lang naman". I regretted those words when I woke up at 7:30 the next morning. I thought I was just hungover from the night before so I forced myself to throw up to get rid of the alcohol and the tired feeling I had but as the day progressed, it got worse. I got to the point of crying hence the photo.

I've never been away from Brianna for that long in two years so it was the first time I felt it. My breasts were full of milk and my lower back was aching and I felt really, really, really tired. Not even the good tired, like the one I get when I run. I don't know how to explain it but I was really tired. I felt a little better after I slept in the bus on our way home but I was completely eased off the pain when I fed Brianna when I got home.

Okay, so it was my fault I didn't bring a breast pump to the trip but it's over and done now. Lesson learned: Next time I'm going away for that long, I'll make sure to bring a breast pump (Note to self: Buy new breast pumps).

#63. My favorite Twitter hashtag as of two weeks ago is #ICAPSLOCKMOPARAINTENSE.

Zalora Launches TVC Online

My favorite online shopping haven, Zalora Philippines, has launched their TVC online last January 8 over their YouTube channel. If you watch a lot of TV, though, you'd have seen it late last year because they've aired it over 4 cable channels for 2 weeks prior to the online release. I think I saw it on Star World twice. If you haven't seen it yet, here it is:


I can somewhat relate to the TVC. I mean, I've become really addicted to online shopping despite the lack of funds. Although no one in the household made a video about it, I keep on getting "Ano ba yan?! May delivery ka nanaman?!" comments from almost everyone that it's getting funnier and funnier as time goes by. What can I say? It's just so addicting!
Zalora.com.ph has a wide range of products, from clothes to home furniture. You can take advantage of the End of Season Sale that's happening in the store right now, too. While you're at it, you can use my voucher code, Aletotski0 [Aletotski(zero)], when you check out for discounts. Yes, you can use the voucher codes to get discounts for the sale items, too.

Beyonce on the cover of GQ. The world is not fair. At all.

So apparently, Beyonce is on the cover of GQ. Prior to clicking the link, I was kinda managing my expectations because she just gave birth to her baby with Jay-Z so I was thinking hey, she might look a wee bit chubbier than normal or her face might look older. I was in for the surprise of my life.

I mean, come on! How is it even possible for someone to pose like this post-pregnancy? And she didn't age a minute! If anything, she looks younger! Ugh. The world is not fair. Beyonce and GQ can just go kiss my fat ass.

Happy New Year Sale in Zalora

I haven't been browsing the Zalora website in weeks because I was too busy eating and drinking but when I did, I was greeted by one of the more pleasurable surprises an online store could offer their patrons:

Yes, all customers will be getting a 13% discount on the items once you use the coupon code NEWYEAR13. A minimum purchase of Php2,500 is required for you to avail of this coupon code, though. It covers all of the products in the website except for sale items, electronics, beauty products and gift cards.

This Zalora sale came just in time for me because I really need the discount for my fitness/body/vanity goal this year. The universe really knows what to throw my way and when to throw it my way.

The universe and Zalora teaming up to help me with my goal. I love it!

Oplan Balik-Alindog 2013

Last year, my thinspiration was Megan Fox. This year, I have a new one:

Miranda Kerr. She gave birth to her baby in 2011 and yet by the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show in November last year, she looks like that! It might be a long shot for someone with genes like mine (mom's side of the family is 'chunky') but knowing that she had to put on some sort of hardwork for her body to look like that, that's motivation enough for me.

I hope my new thinspiration get me somewhere this year. Actually, Megan Fox as thinspiration for last year wasn't too bad. I got tons of "Ang payat mo!" and "Parang di naman mommy..." compliments from friends and acquaintances alike plus a year-end flirting spree/ego boost capped it all off but this year, I am aiming for tons of two-syllable damns and probably an indecent proposal from the guy I like.

Good vibes, Adam, please...

Since I've been down on the dumps lately - all thanks to that comment - I am obliged to post a photo of a topless hot male person here to lift my spirits up even for just a bit:

I've chosen Adam Levine because while I was renaming my audio files, I've come across one of the digital copies of their album booklets and this was in it. Being the shallow girl that I am, I lifted the photo from it and ogled at it for a good 5 minutes before actually posting it here so I can ogle at it some more.

Gold digger.

I don't consider myself to be a gold digger. I'm not one to spend thousands and thousands of pesos over branded clothes, Apple gadgets or ridiculously over-priced bags/watches/shoes. (The only piece of branded clothing I own is an Esprit shirt that was given to me as a gift three Christmases ago. I own a Mango wallet and a brand spankin' new pair of Nike running shoes which were both given to me as gifts this Christmas.) I don't even want to eat in places with meal prices that start at Php200.

With that said, I really cannot comprehend, with all of my 16 years of relatively expensive private school education, how I became a gold digger. I want to live in my own house/apartment. I want to drive a decent enough car. I want my daughter to get private school education like I did. I do not demand any of these from my boyfriend or anybody else. If anything, I demand all of these from myself. I just shared them with the person I am supposed to be working with to achieve all of these and what do I get? The label Gold Digger. 

Okay, maybe I am expecting him to want the same things and actually go "Okay, ako na ang bahala." or maybe even a "Sige, i-goal natin yan." would suffice but it seems like I'm asking too much. So much so that I got called a gold digger by the last person who I thought would have the gall to call me that.

Welcoming 2013 with arms wide open.

2012 would've been a big blah if November and December didn't turn out the way they did. November was the lowest point of last year but December proved to be the superhero and saved the day - err, year! If we were in a basketball game and were teammates, I would've patted 2012 hard on the back (and on the ass because basketball teammates always do that to each other and it looks fun) for the spectacular end-game performance. Come-from-behind win ang peg!

I am excited for 2013 despite not having set any goals (yet) and passing up on the resolutions. I take this as me, grabbing all the great opportunities that will be presented this coming year. I haven't done this in years and maybe this is exactly what I need to turn things around.

Happy New Year, everyone!