MARAMING SALAMAT.

Ang buwan ng Hulyo ay naging mahirap. Mabigat.

Maraming masasakit na salita ang nabitawan.
Maraming desisyong hindi napanindigan.
Maraming maling pananaw ang nakapagpaalog ng pundasyong matagal nang nilalatag.
May mga nagbago at may mga hindi nagbago.
Nabawasan ang tiwala, paniniwala, at respeto.
Nadagdagan ang pagdududa, pagaalinlangan, at sakit.
Nananatili ang pagkakaiba sa mga opinyon at mga kuro-kuro at ang paninindigan sa mga ito.

Pero nalampasan namin ang lahat ng ito sa pagkapit sa nasa itaas at sa pagmamahal sa isa't isa.

Sa pagsasara ng buwan ng Hulyo, gusto ko lang magpasalamat sa buwang nakalipas at sa mga bagyong dulot nito. Lalong nadagdagan ang pagpapahalaga ko sa aking sarili at sa aking pinakamamahal.

Nawa'y maging matiwasay ang mga susunod na mag buwan at mga taon para sa aming dalawa. Kung hindi man, sana ay mas mapatatag pa kami ng mga unos na aming pagdadaanan.

Naomi and Ely's No Kiss List

So I started reading books again, thanks to my current addiction with the Goodreads website/app. I've been browsing the website for two days straight now and bookmarking every book I want to read and judging a lot of them by their covers which I know I shouldn't be doing but that's how I decide whether I would want to read it or not. (Inhale, exhale. Inhale, exhale.)

Anyway, I've just finished reading a couple of books, including this book by David Levithan and Rachel Cohn called Naomi and Ely's No Kiss List. Having just read Every Day (by David Levithan) before I read this one, I expected a lot from this book which I obviously shouldn't have done 'cause halfway through the book, I wanted to stop reading it altogether. I didn't, though, 'cause I wanted to actually finish all the books in my library/hard drive.

(Apparently, this book has a movie adaptation. Wala lang.)

Having said that the book disappointed me, I still have one line that I want to take note of:

I know, I know. I'm turning 26 this year but I am still clinging on to the idea that maybe things will start getting really easy if I'm - as the author wrote - on my best behavior. I really gotta get my head out of the clouds, huh?

Going YESSS, YAMAN with my 4 Pre-Loved Items!

http://www.thestylecebu.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/06/olx.jpg

I've been a member of OLX.ph (formerly known as Sulit.com.ph) since September 2012 and I've sold a lot of stuff over the years, including TONS of books and a whole lot of breastmilk bags that I didn't get to use.

Right now, my OLX.ph page has 5 items: our beloved CRV and these 4 items which, I hope, can find new owners who will love them as much as I did.

I've searched far and wide for this book (OA ko lang) but at the time I desperately wanted to read it, I can't afford a brand new copy. I resorted to the next best place to get goods (Sulit.com.ph!) and bought a cheaper copy from there. Now, I'd want to share with someone else the wisdom this book gave me so I'm selling it over at #olxph.

I bought this top from a friend probably a year ago. When I saw it from her stocks, I immediately wanted to have it. I mean, just look at the colors! I tried wearing it out a couple of times but then I resigned to the fact that I cannot, for the life of me, pull this top off. It doesn't jive well with my personal style to start with but that doesn't discount the fact that I actually wanted it when I saw it.

I got this water bottle from a store in Clark when Brianna was still a baby, swearing to myself I was gonna make her use this when she starts going to school. It's so pretty and so lady-like. I especially love the pearl details on the neck of the bottle (which can be detached). Anyway, fast-forward to 4 years and 700 million water bottles after, I took the bottle out of the storage and thought it would be such a waste to use it just once and forget all about it like the other water bottles I have in storage now so I'm now selling it.

I'm not really a perfume kind of girl. I get dizzy when I spray some on but that doesn't stop people from giving me perfumes when they come home from a travel. This one in particular was given to me by my tita. It smells really good, mind you, with that fresh, fruity scent. As much as it pains me to part with that scent, I need to sell it to save me from a major migraine.

So, if you want to be the loving owner of any of the 4 items (or our CRV!), just go to my OLX.ph page  or drop me a line on my message box on the sidebar so we can talk.







YESSS, YAMAN!
(Can I just say, sooooooobrang catchy lang talaga nito…)
(I know, so random.)

Done, done, and done.

I am a full-time mom.

I am a full-time, home-based employee.

I am a full-time girlfriend.

I am a full-time friend.

I am a full-time daughter.

I am a full-time sister.

And I am planning to put up a business soon *cross fingers*.

On top of all that, I am planning for a (relatively) bright future that includes Brianna, myself, and two more people.

Photo credit: http://spyrestudios.com/26-minimalist-ads-that-inspire/

Although it's important to do what I can do now for that future I desire and keep myself (and everyone else) aligned to that final vision, most of the time, all I want is just to take a break from all of my responsibilities and obligations but we all know how impossible that is.

For me, taking that kind of break means dying for a while and I can't afford to die even for just a second. There's a lot that needs to be done and a lot to be taken care of. I know that I should be delegating jobs to the people in my life but since I want everything done right the very first time, I shoulder a lot of the responsibilities. This also limits the frustrations on my part.

Photo credit: https://www.flickr.com/photos/kalimistuk/6145609198/

Most of the time, though, I feel like I am going to lose my mind because of all the things that are in my head. Maybe the reason is I don't know how to effectively organize my thoughts and do things all at the same time. So if God and the Universe are listening to me right now, I hope to unlock the skill of being able to multitask.

Photo credit: http://yangabbles.blogspot.com/2014/06/have-break-and-join-kitkatbreakmovement.html

I cannot multitask to save my life. I can't even fall asleep and listen to music at the same time. That's how bad I am at multitasking. Which can get really, really bad during PMS season 'cause I can't focus on anything but having PMS. Having all those responsibilities I've mentioned earlier call for the multitasking skill not to gain some sort of recognition from other people but just so I can stay sane at the end of the day because it can get pretty cray-zey.

Right now, though, I still can't master this skill so the next best thing for me? Taking a break. Just sitting on one corner, reading a book or watching Friends (for the 1329785678124659th time). Having a break doesn't only give my mind some rest; it also reminds me of my goals and how I should act in accordance to those goals so when I get back into action, I know exactly what to do.

Now, how can I start mastering the art of multitasking?

I'm watching way too much Friends.

How do I achieve this hair (minus the hair color, of course, because I definitely can't pull off blonde hair)?! Someone tell me please!!!

PS. I'm more of a Monica but Jennifer Aniston is gorgeous.

#medyomababawangkaligayahan

It doesn't take much to make me smile, really.

Screen grab from http://israelmekaniko.tumblr.com/post/90841397519

A simple acknowledgement, no matter how shallow, is enough to make my day.

PS. This Israel Mekaniko guy is funny. I love reading his blog.

What not to post on Instagram

1. Selfies with your cleavage showing
2. Collaged selfies
3. Famous beauty quotes as captions to selfies
4. 10 separate photos of the same shot
5. 4092384918320921 photos from one event all posted within an hour (pahabol photos the day after: optional). COLLAGE THEM AND GET IT OVER WITH WILL YA #Hugot101
6. Morbid photos of your wounds/injuries/operation
7. #captions #that #look #like #this #nakakairitakaya #tagsforlikesulul #amiright #naturalbeautyyourface
8. Photos that obviously beg for compliments
9. Pahaging in photo form… You have Twitter para magparinig.
10. Photos of food that don't look appetizing 'cause why?

What not to post on Facebook

1. Selfies with your cleavage showing
2. Collaged selfies
3. 10 photos of the same shot
4. Arguments with your partner
5. Arguments with your parents
6. Basically, anything that has to do with arguing with someone else.
7. Photos of stuff you are selling if your purpose is to tag people to it
8. "If you love Jesus, like this photo" posts
9. Morbid photos of your wounds/injuries/operations
10. Posts that beg for (fake) sympathies from others

Brain Dump.

I am a hopeless romantic and last night, I realized that there's a reason behind it: I've always wanted to become a wife. Even when I was younger, I went on dates with the thought that I might be spending my life with the person I am meeting for the very first time. It's always been that way.

I started dating in 2002, when a friend tagged me along a date with her boyfriend so the boyfriend's buddy would have someone to talk to. We ended up going on 3 dates but, even if he's so obnoxious (that time), that I wanted to smack his head to his coffee, I still fantasized about how we'd spend lazy Sunday afternoons together.

The only exception for this I-think-I-wanna-marry-you mentality was probably when I dated my block mate but even then, we ended up dating for a full year.

Going out of topic but bottom-line is that I've always wanted to be a wife. I think believe I function better emotionally? psychologically? mentally? when I'm part of a "we" instead of just being on my own…which I've learned to accept. I'm not cut out to be Miss Independent. I get it.

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Reason for that's most probably because I love doing the support thing most…which might be rebutted by at least 2 people who have called me contradicting.

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I apparently have lost the ability to express my love, care, and concern. For the record, I blame the babydaddy. For now, I have to push myself to be that annoying girlfriend I once was again.

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I am possessive beyond belief and I get crazy-jealous. As in CUHRAYZEE-jealous. I forgot how severe these…diseases are and they're taking too much work on my boyfriend's end. Yes, this early.

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Despite all this, though, I am quite lucky to have a guy who's patience, understanding, and love know no boundaries. I know he's got limits (contradicting nanaman. That's the reason why I was dubbed "walking contradiction" by a college friend) and I'm not stupid enough to push them and that is why I will try to become a better partner for him.

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Blah blah blah, those words don't mean anything, I know, but I'm having a hard time showing how I'm feeling. Thanks to 7 years of practice with College Guy.

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(Hahahahahahaha! Sinisi lahat sa lalaki.)

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Relationship also suffering from missing each other so much. What is clingy?

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I want to move out. Seriously. Ironically, the want peaked at the height of the storm yesterday. I want to know how I'll react to something like that whilst caring for a hyperactive kid. (Whilst talaga?)

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For some reason, my mind goes back to that one day in September last year. I wonder why.

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I definitely need to stop smoking. I have every reason to but I don't believe I have the discipline to actually do it but I will do it…after this last cigarette pack I have with me now.

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I'm thinking of getting an actual office job but all the jobs I want requires me to relocate to the South. Great for me but I guess I have to wait for Brianna to finish this academic year before I move although I really, really, really want it to happen now.

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I should update my iPod playlist now but it's too tedious a task, I'm getting lazy just by thinking about it.

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First of all, there's no sea anywhere near Cainta. Second, I don't want to live there. Yun lang naman apila ko dito. Hahahahaha!

You see, I'm running out of things to do online so I've been taking all kinds of tests posted on my Facebook timeline…even those with jeje graphics.

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I want to do and be a lot of things lately and my save-up-for-the-future deadline is coming in full speed which explains the anxiety I've been having these past few days.

Online shopping.

So last night, the boyfriend and I were online shopping for cars and homes for sale. He was the one who found the most pogi car I've seen since 2001, when I fell in love with that red hatchback1994 Honda Civic along St. Paul Rd on our way to school one lazy morning.

Anyway, he saw this house and I can't move on from how much I love it. He's pretty proud of himself for finding it…

The clincher? It's in BF Parañaque! I've been going on and on and on and on about wanting to live in the South, specifically in this community, and we've found a house there that fits both our tastes and needs.

This will now go to my vision board and hopefully we get to purchase this soon!

I might've just found "The One".

Good god, I can't stop staring at it and get all high-school-girl kilig when I minimize all my windows.

I don't even like red cars and I've been lusting over passion orange SIRs for the longest time but this formula red SIR…dear god…so pogi!

And the best part? The "Pilipinas" plate. That simple detail made my heart leap 'cause I've always wanted a car that has an old school plate.

AAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!! THIS CAR IS SO POGI! NAKAKAKILIG BWISIT!

Chris Jones, whoever you are, you are doing it damn right, son!

Ohmygod Joseph Marco

Currently watching Pure Love online because of this guy:

Screen grabbed from PinayTambayan.com

I first noticed Joseph Marco on the Primetime Bida soap, Sabel, back in 2011 where he was part of a love triangle with Jessy Mendiola and AJ Perez.

Now that he's back on Primetime Bida, my life is suddenly back on track. I have something to look forward to again. Forget about the future and spending the rest of my life in the loving arms of my favorite person; Joseph Marco on primetime is what life is all about now.

Too relevant.

This quote is too relevant today, it deserves to be posted everywhere!

“Whatever you give a woman, she will only make greater. Give her your sperm, she’ll give you a baby. Give her a house, she’ll give you a home. Give her groceries, she’ll give you a meal. Give her a smile, she’ll give you her heart. She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her. So, if you give her any crap, be ready to receive a ton of shit!” 

- Erick S. Gray

Also, the official hashtag of the day is #asakaboi.

No Regrets.

I do not regret one moment of my life.

- Lillie Langtry

I've been through a lot. A LOT.

Okay, I might be exaggerating because I haven't been stabbed nor do I have parents who went their separate ways but I can honestly say I've been through a lot and you just have to take my word for it. There are things that are obvious to the naked eye and there are things that you have to dig a little deeper to uncover. Some are embarrassing and some are just downright put*ng*na-hindi-nga? depressing.

Based on what I've already said, you would think that I regret a lot of things that has happened to me but - and in no way is this bull - I don't regret anything. At all. Yes, I got mad. I cried. And thankfully, I stopped caring. But I never regretted anything even when I was younger. I didn't understand it at first. I thought I was just really that gullible to have genuinely forgiven someone who did bad, bad, bad things to me but as I grew older, I've realized how it's because at some point, I've wanted it to happen. That, and I wouldn't have been the person I am now if I hadn't gone through all those things. Cliche, I know, but like Marshall Eriksen told the gang, "It's not a cliche; it's a classic!"

Those are the very same reasons why I haven't talked crap about those people who offended me in the past. They helped me become the person I am now so there's no point in getting all riled-up whenever I remember them, too. Of course, that's not the same as telling the truth 'cause whenever people ask me about them, I tell them the truth which makes them look bad but that's not my problem anymore.

I forgive people easily because of all that; up to the point where I become all chummy-chummy with (some of) them again. Yes, I got abused because of that but throughout the years, I've learned to determine when to stop. Once I came to the point where I actually stop, though, I instantly cut that person out of my life cause I won't go through all that all over again. I'm not that stupid.

A lot of times, I wish I can share this skill? (cause it definitely needs to be practiced) with some people. I honestly believe it will improve a lot of relationships and strengthen a lot of hearts. I'm not saying that I am the master of all this. I just think it's easier to live a life where you don't have any negative energies in your system and forgiving, accepting, and not regretting will remove a whole lot of them from your body and I want to share that easy life with people.

(I'm sorry if I'm not making any sense because no matter how hard I try, I still can't express myself in writing…which is ironic 'cause I write for a living.)