After 3 years...

Those people who are nice enough to actually pay attention to whatever it is I am saying know that it has been my lifelong (well...) dream to be a part of the ABS-CBN Corporation team. I felt it was the right job for me. I wanted to be a part of a very dynamic work environment and I wanted to be a part of the "difference" television made. I was willing to start from the bottom; to work long hours without them having to pay me anything higher than the minimum wage, to be thrown into a far off place with nothing to eat, everything. I was willing to sacrifice my health to be a part of the team.

The last time I sent my resume to ABS-CBN was way back in '09 when I got forced to work. It was 3 months after graduation and all I did was drink day in and day out. They called me for an interview and got another call a week after for a second interview. I never got another call since then. I got into TVSTYLE, got pregnant, have given birth and now, 3 years after my last application with the company, they decided to tell me that I have been chosen to become a part of ABS-CBN Global. Quite frankly, I don't know if I still want it.

Don't get me wrong, though. It's still the dream but it's not the priority as of the moment. If they had called me exactly 2 years ago, I would've said yes in a heartbeat but now, things are different. I have another mouth to feed (literally). I have someone who needs me to be beside her all the time and that is entirely the reason why I am actually making this work from home gig work. I'm still quite young and in a couple of years, when Brianna starts going to school, maybe I can give the ABS-CBN dream another shot but now, that dream has got to take the backseat.

So as much as I want to, I'm gonna have to decline. There are some more important stuff than building a career. Maybe in a few years or maybe not. If we're meant to be together, we will be together.