Thursday, July 10, 2014

No Regrets.

I do not regret one moment of my life.
- Lillie Langtry

I've been through a lot. A LOT.

Okay, I might be exaggerating because I haven't been stabbed nor do I have parents who went their separate ways but I can honestly say I've been through a lot and you just have to take my word for it. There are things that are obvious to the naked eye and there are things that you have to dig a little deeper to uncover. Some are embarrassing and some are just downright put*ng*na-hindi-nga? depressing.

Based on what I've already said, you would think that I regret a lot of things that has happened to me but - and in no way is this bull - I don't regret anything. At all. Yes, I got mad. I cried. And thankfully, I stopped caring. But I never regretted anything even when I was younger. I didn't understand it at first. I thought I was just really that gullible to have genuinely forgiven someone who did bad, bad, bad things to me but as I grew older, I've realized how it's because at some point, I've wanted it to happen. That, and I wouldn't have been the person I am now if I hadn't gone through all those things. Cliche, I know, but like Marshall Eriksen told the gang, "It's not a cliche; it's a classic!"

Those are the very same reasons why I haven't talked crap about those people who offended me in the past. They helped me become the person I am now so there's no point in getting all riled-up whenever I remember them, too. Of course, that's not the same as telling the truth 'cause whenever people ask me about them, I tell them the truth which makes them look bad but that's not my problem anymore.

I forgive people easily because of all that; up to the point where I become all chummy-chummy with (some of) them again. Yes, I got abused because of that but throughout the years, I've learned to determine when to stop. Once I came to the point where I actually stop, though, I instantly cut that person out of my life cause I won't go through all that all over again. I'm not that stupid.

A lot of times, I wish I can share this skill? (cause it definitely needs to be practiced) with some people. I honestly believe it will improve a lot of relationships and strengthen a lot of hearts. I'm not saying that I am the master of all this. I just think it's easier to live a life where you don't have any negative energies in your system and forgiving, accepting, and not regretting will remove a whole lot of them from your body and I want to share that easy life with people.

(I'm sorry if I'm not making any sense because no matter how hard I try, I still can't express myself in writing…which is ironic 'cause I write for a living.)


  1. I like that this has been your mantra from heaven knows when. (Wasn't "no regrets" the name of your blog back then?)

    And yes, you're making sense. Writing about your feelings in writing is hard because, unlike everything else, it's not the sort of thing that can be organized sensibly.

    1. Yes! Okay, I might've regretted deleting that Xanga blog but as I've said, at some point I wanted it to happen…deleting it that is. No regretsssss! Haha!

      I was done writing a full hour before I published it. I kept on tweaking, re-writing, and deleting parts of it. That's the best way I can write it. Doubted myself the entire time pero sabi ko nalang na in a way, nagmmake sense naman na siya. Hahaha!

  2. Sounds like someone really ticked you off. I think the level of how bad things can be in a person's perspective depends on their own tolerances.
    When someone tries to knock me off my feet I try not to care because there are 7 billion people in the world, why would I let that one person ruin my day? If it's not worth it, then I don't make the effort on stressing myself out.
    And no it's definitely not cliche. In fact, I no longer believe in such a word.

    1. I was kinda in the middle of an argument with someone while I was writing this so yeah, to some extent, someone ticked me off.

      That's a great insight. I try so hard to do the not-caring thing but maybe I'm just a sensitive patola who can't let things go without giving them a piece of my mind. I'm working on it, though. :p