I do not regret one moment of my life.
- Lillie Langtry
I've been through a lot. A LOT.
Okay, I might be exaggerating because I haven't been stabbed nor do I have parents who went their separate ways but I can honestly say I've been through a lot and you just have to take my word for it. There are things that are obvious to the naked eye and there are things that you have to dig a little deeper to uncover. Some are embarrassing and some are just downright put*ng*na-hindi-nga? depressing.
Based on what I've already said, you would think that I regret a lot of things that has happened to me but - and in no way is this bull - I don't regret anything. At all. Yes, I got mad. I cried. And thankfully, I stopped caring. But I never regretted anything even when I was younger. I didn't understand it at first. I thought I was just really that gullible to have genuinely forgiven someone who did bad, bad, bad things to me but as I grew older, I've realized how it's because at some point, I've wanted it to happen. That, and I wouldn't have been the person I am now if I hadn't gone through all those things. Cliche, I know, but like Marshall Eriksen told the gang, "It's not a cliche; it's a classic!"
Those are the very same reasons why I haven't talked crap about those people who offended me in the past. They helped me become the person I am now so there's no point in getting all riled-up whenever I remember them, too. Of course, that's not the same as telling the truth 'cause whenever people ask me about them, I tell them the truth which makes them look bad but that's not my problem anymore.
I forgive people easily because of all that; up to the point where I become all chummy-chummy with (some of) them again. Yes, I got abused because of that but throughout the years, I've learned to determine when to stop. Once I came to the point where I actually stop, though, I instantly cut that person out of my life cause I won't go through all that all over again. I'm not that stupid.
A lot of times, I wish I can share this skill? (cause it definitely needs to be practiced) with some people. I honestly believe it will improve a lot of relationships and strengthen a lot of hearts. I'm not saying that I am the master of all this. I just think it's easier to live a life where you don't have any negative energies in your system and forgiving, accepting, and not regretting will remove a whole lot of them from your body and I want to share that easy life with people.
(I'm sorry if I'm not making any sense because no matter how hard I try, I still can't express myself in writing…which is ironic 'cause I write for a living.)