Tuesday, April 2, 2013

Labels.

Labels have always been important to me. They're there to put people where they need to be and they're there to ensure peace among people involved in a certain situation. It doesn't matter if the label's the other man or woman; it should be clear to everyone so expectations can be reduced and actions (and reactions) can be limited.

I am now in a position where I don't know what my label is, romantic (or lack thereof) relationship-wise. I was girlfriend-fiance-girlfriend-babymommy, if there's such a term-Idon'tknowanymore in a matter of 3 years and the Idon'tknowanymore label is killing me. I don't know if I am still in a committed relationship because we do not talk at all anymore. It might be my fault because I stopped trying but you can't blame me for reaching the limit of my patience...especially for a guy who is as stubborn as the babydaddy.

Anyway, I would really want to know what we are now. It's not that I am itching to go out on a date with another guy (although there are days that I'm this close to asking someone out); it's more of wanting peace of mind. I want to know if I should be expecting anything or if I should be doing something to salvage the relationship if it's still worth saving. Here's the problem, though: I don't want to ask him because when I do, he's going to make me feel like either I'm stupid for asking a question with an obvious answer or that I'm selfish for not taking his feelings into consideration. Yes, whenever we talk, it's always lose-lose for me.

See? This is why I just went "Sorry, bruh" when I ended my previous relationships. It's easier that way. With the babydaddy, though, it's a different ballgame and I don't know how to play it.

Note: I'm sorry for the HIMYM reference yet again and I'm sorry for all the (additional) thoughts in parentheses.

5 comments:

  1. I feel ya. Anyway, just ask him; at least you'd be able to find out and 'move on'.

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    1. It's not as simple as that pagdating sa kanya e. As I've said, he's kinda stubborn...

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    2. ...and I am as stubborn as he is. Haha! :))

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  2. I ask the same question as well. Sigh.

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