#53. I wish I were one of those people who can wear heels the whole day without feeling the need to bring flats.

Will you?

Will you judge me if I told you I didn't know what my bra size is? 'Cause I totally don't.

My ZALORA Wishlist.

I have been posting tons of wishlist in this blog  and here I am, posting yet another one. This one right here is for the summer, although I have items in the list that aren't for the summer vacation. It's more of a it's-cheaper-if-I-buy-them-now-because-they're-not-in-season type of thing.

Anyway, the first one on my list has got to be the Bonita Large Shoulder Bag with Gold Lock.

I love bags with this shape and I love the color of this particular bag. Add that to the fact that all of my baby's necessities plus my things will fit in this bag when we go for a trip out of town.

This Cia Maritima one piece with gold rings swimwear also caught my attention right away.

I do have a couple of bikinis in my closet but motherhood came to me when I was just about bikini-ready in 2010 that I didn't have the chance to actually wear it again and now, a year after Brianna's arrival, I've yet to  get rid of the pregnancy belly so I have to settle with a maillot for now.

These grey casual boots from Centropelle are just one of the two pieces in my list that are not really for the summer but are part of my summer wishlist, anyway.

Up to know, I still don't own a pair of boots. I would want to own one but I haven't found the perfect one for me and for the Philippine weather. Until now, that is. This one would go really well with most of my wardrobe since I am more of a casual dresser. Those chunkier ones would have been great except with the Philippines' weather, I don't think I'd last a minute in a pair of those.

This next one is for my baby girl.

This pink Hover Sneak from Crocs will be perfect for Brianna's cutesy little feet. I bet she'd want to run all over the place with these sneakers. I would too, if I had a pair.

Last is for my ever-dearest baby daddy. This is the second piece that isn't really for the summer but I just have to have it here.

I've always wanted to get Bry a jacket that he can wear both for work and for when we go out and this military jacket from 5CM will definitely be the perfect jacket to finish off his already dashing look.

This is yet another wishlist I am broadcasting out for the universe to hear. I hope this time, the universe hears me and grants me my summer wish. *cross fingers*

http://www.ZALORA.com.ph/

Expo Mom 2012

Going to bazaars started giving me a sense of glee just last year. I don't know if it is because of Brianna or I've finally become a "lady" but going through countless racks of clothes and dozens of accessories has finally become a necessity for me. Lucky for me, Mommy Mundo usually have bazaars that are meant for moms and moms-to-be and for their second bazaar this year, they will be holding the Expo Mom 2012 on May 5-6, 2012 at the Rockwell Tent.

To add more fun to the Expo Mom 2012 event, Mommy Mundo has an exciting theme for the 5th year of their flagship event: MODERN MOTHERHOOD. Their website and Facebook page have provided its subscribers of different kinds of modern moms. You can visit their sites to know what kind of mom you are.

As for me,

Well, actually, according to the descriptions posted in their sites, I am a mixture of a breastfeeding mom, a hands-on mom and a tech mom. I am a breastfeeding mom because, well, I still breastfeed despite the fact that Brianna is already a year, 2 months old. I am a hands-on mom because all of Brianna's experiences, I want to be a part of and that is the reason why I chose to work from home. Tech mom because as I've said, I'm a work-at-home mom who uses the power of technology for my freelance writer job.

Being a modern mom is fun and exciting. Being with people who share the same experiences as you will make it more fun. Join Mommy Mundo's Expo Mom 2012 event on May 5-6, 2012 at the Rockwell Tent and share your experiences with other modern moms and shop 'til you drop from the booths momprenuers have put up just for that event.

#52. I love Carl the Bartender.

Another Kean Cipriano-related post.

If you're tired of reading about him here, get the hell outta here.

Anyway, as I am typing this, I am refreshing my Twitter feed for Kean Cipriano's updates. It's this time in the morning - pag wala siyang gig - that he replies to all of those who message him on Twitter and that means he's flooding his followers' timelines but I am not complaining because every tweet gets me all kilig even if they're not for me or I cannot actually relate altogether.

I kinda miss this feeling, obsessing over one person without actually falling in love with him. It's all pure, unadulterated (maybe) kilig. Last time I felt this was in college but with College Dude, well, he's very much reachable to the point that we had a "moment" one of the inuman sessions that I swear happened even if I keep on blacking out the entire time and another "moment" where I was sober but I don't consider that a moment because he just got set-up that one time.

Anyway, this obsession has been keeping my mind off of things that might make me sad or paranoid or anything negative. He's my happy crush as of the moment.

Happy crush just posted this on his timeline:

At siya pa talaga nagpost niyan ah... Hahaha! :))

*sigh* I love him. I even asked my friend who is his stylist for The Reunion to actually drag me to one of their shooting days so I can stare at his face in person.

#51. I have a secret weakness for guys and girls who play the guitar really well.

Creeper.

I am really scaring myself now. I just searched for Kean Cipriano's Cosmo Bachelor Bash photos. I've found a set of his greatest photos ever and I will be posting them here in a while but I can't help but think that I am going back to my old, 1998 self. I like it, though. It's been a long while since I last got crazy over a local celebrity and with Kean, well, he's near. As in literally near. He lives in the same neighborhood as I am. As in walking distance; unlike John Prats who (used to) lived in Quezon City.

Anyway, here are those hummunah-worthy photos that got me drooling over my keyboard:

To make it seem like I am really so much of a creeper, while I am making this post, I am listening to/watching the I Don't Know Show over Ustream.

Ooh, and I am saving the best for last:

Ito ang tinatawag na likod palang, ulam na.

Edit (April 16, 2012):

KTNXBYE.

Can someone please answer this for me?

Is it wrong to fantasize about a celebrity - to the point that I dream about him every night - now that I am a mom?

Remember when I said that I deserve to have relapses?

Well, apparently, God decided to tell me something and He used my GodWhispers subscription to tell me whatever it is He needed to tell me to make me feel better...

This is one of the greatest photos posted on the Internet. At least for me.

Taken from Derek Ramsay's Twitter page (@iamderekramsay)

This was true a few years ago.

Realization over the 5-day weekend

I only have one realization over the 5-day weekend...

Shampooing my hair once every 3 days with the 2 days washing it only with conditioner makes it smoother and more manageable.

Yeah. That's the only realization I have over the 5-day weekend.

I just have to repost this.

(From http://aletotski.blogspot.com/2011/06/august-wag-ka-magmadali-pwede-chill.html)

I am allowed to have relapses, okay?

I know I've been doing surprisingly well lately. The PSI mantra has suddenly taken effect in my life without me forcing it in my thoughts. It came to a point where I don't even consciously stop myself from thinking a negative thought and I'd last for days without them. Everything suddenly felt so natural, like I am just breathing or something.

But there are times when you get too caught up in your breathing that you suddenly feel the need to purposefully do it because if you don't, you end up thinking that you are not breathing correctly. It's when you become conscious of how slow or fast you are breathing that you have a hard time doing so.

Well, right now, that's how I am feeling. Negative thoughts are suddenly rushing to my head that I need to actually force myself to think of happy thoughts.

This sucks but I am allowed to slide a few inches down for me to realize how high up I am and how I should keep going up.

I am getting off this hellhole tonight.

American Pen Names

My current boss actually asked me to think of an American pen name last week. That will be the name that they're going to use to sign my articles online. So far, I haven't decided on what name I will be using but my boss thinks I should use this:

It sort of like my name but not quite. I just can't get the thought of it sounding like a hooker's name out of my mind.

Always.