Please forgive me...

Warning: This is a totally narcissistic post.

I know nothing gives me the right to pollute the internet with my face but can I just say I am so in love with my Mac? Not because it's super high-tech or something but because its camera makes me look pretty.

Right?! RIIIIIIIIIIGHT?!

Objectifying men... I'm not even sorry.

Still haven't moved on from the Bench: The Naked Truth show's parade of abs yet when the abs of Cosmopolitan Bachelor Bash: COSMO69 come marching right in...

JOSEPH MARCOOOOOOOO! Chief Compliance Officer, huh? He might want to call me to his office; I'm not really good at following rules and policies and stuff... Ugh. My little crush on Joseph Marco's developing into a full-blown Kean Cipriano-esque obsession and it. Is. Not Good. But good god, his face (and abs) beg to differ.

Yeah, Paulo Avelino suddenly made my list after making a special appearance in my dreams last night.

I know both guys appeared at the Bench show so I shouldn't be drooling in front of my computer all over again but the fact remains: girls can never get enough of topless men like guys can never get enough of boobies.

(Yes, I just posted my first ever rant post about my dear, dear boyfriend, Mr. Breath of Fresh Air. I still love you heaps, though, and that doesn't change the fact that I am so thankful to God and the Universe for you and your impeccable timing. Tampo lang ako.)

(Hayaan na, minsan lang ako maglambing...online.)

I don't care if you call me "mababaw"; I have my reasons.

(I don't even know how to write this. That's how shitty I'm feeling right now.)

I guess there are people who don't get attached to material things as much as I do. Don't get me wrong; I'm not materialistic. I just attach emotions and sentiments and all those touchy-feely stuff to things. That's the reason why I have kept a whole lot of junk from the past. Mind you, most of these things weren't given to me. These are things I bought/picked up from the garbage (gross, I know)/made that remind me of certain emotions/situations. I'm sentimental like that.

(Teka, teka, teka: Is that what materialistic means? Keeping trash you don't actually need? I'm kind of confused and quite frankly, I forgot what it actually means. Tanga ba? Bite me.)

It just bums me out that the one person who I thought held on to sentiments the way I did, apparently, doesn't see it that way. I know I shouldn't expect things from others but I just can't help it especially if he's the kind of guy who seems like he just walked right out of a rom-com movie. You know, surprise-favorite-breakfast-meals, movie-marathon-while-cuddling-on-a-couch, holding-hands-while-driving kind of guy. At some point, you're going to have to expect things. Like holding on to things that's remotely close to the two of us.

Anyway, whatever. It's nothing major. It's just a stupid watch. Right now, I'm ready to bawl my eyes out if he disposes it off (meaning he'll give it to his sister) but I'm pretty sure tomorrow I'll be over it. It isn't mine anyway. I just have the same watch which I honestly thought we bought as kind of a couples watch of sorts but whatever. I don't care anymore.

PS. It sucks that after all that I've been through, I still expect things from people.

PPS. Yes, all of this for a stupid watch.

PPPS. I don't think you'll ever understand why I'm making a big deal out of this but whatever.

Grinning like an idiot on a Sunday night.

Currently watching last week's episodes of Pure Love and please don't judge me for watching this teleserye but it's really good (partly because it's a remake of a Koreanovela meaning the concept's not really Pinoy but what the hell). Anyway, I got all kilig when this scene came up from the September 18 episode. When I realized I was smiling like a high school girl, I thought "WTH stop smiling!" because it's lame and also because I am not Yen Santos in this scene. (Sorry boyfie!)

I don't understand why most Pure Love viewers push for the Joseph Marco-Alex Gonzaga love team when clearly, his and Yen Santos' chemistry is spot on. I know the love story angle revolves around Dave and Dianne but Yen Santos' portrayal of Dianne-possessed Ysabel makes that angle work. Am I the only one feeling this way? JoYen/SephYen/YenSeph...whatever they're called in teleserye fandom; I'm rooting for them.

Also:

Photos are not mine. Found them in Instagram (#nakedtruth). 

Hayyy Sir Dave...

What is it with me and guys texting at wee hours in the morning?

I currently have 3 guys who regularly send me "Heyyy you up?" (seriously, yan talaga yung nakalagay) messages at 2, 3, 4 o'clock in the morning and just this morning, another "friend" from college decided to drop me a Facebook message, asking how I'm doing. There's nothing wrong with that except PLEASE STOP MESSAGING ME AT 4 IN THE FREAKIN' MORNING! We all know that that time of the day - IT'S STILL NIGHTTIME REALLY - is the booty call hour. It doesn't even matter what your opening message is; we both just know that it's all about getting frisky.

What's worse is I made it pretty clear that I am in a serious relationship with someone at the moment. Do I look like someone who will cheat on my boyfriend for a night in the sack with a sad guy who can't find - and stick with - another girl to do dirty things with?

Am I giving off a vibe that only jerks could pick-up? Yeah, I talk like a sailor most of the time but that doesn't give guys the permission to go all Barney Stinson on me. I'm not that kind of girl.

#71. I was 10 years old when I learned that "I love you" isn't a vulgar statement. How sad is that?

It has been a year...

If I were still me a year ago, I probably would all be weepy on Twitter the entire day as I recall what happened exactly a year ago. I'd probably need my friends to comfort me as I beat myself up for allowing such a thing to happen to me. I'd most probably be drunk out of my wits, throwing up everything I've eaten the whole day.

It's just so ironic that THAT coincides with our (the boyfriend and I) 4th month anniversary. I mean, yeah, it's not that ironic but I would like to think it is.

I really won't be able to finish this #100HappyDays thing, will I?

I'm lacking 2-3 weeks worth of #100HappyDays entries but I haven't been lacking in positive vibes. In fact, after all that's been happening to me, I'm pretty proud of myself. I never get tired of being thankful despite the bull hovering over me day in and day out...even if I don't really document them everyday.

Now - and I hope it's not considered cheating...although I know it is - I shall post some of the skipped days that I did take photos of the things I was thankful for here. Hopefully, I can follow through on this again and you can all forget how horrible I am with this daily-blogging thing.

August 22, 2014 - Day 22.

Brianna had a kite-flying activity at school which happened at the Greenwoods covered court nearby. It was really fun seeing Brianna playing all those Pinoy (old school?) games. And she really rocked tumbang preso! I'll most probably teach her how to play Chinese garter 'cause it's one of the few things I do great in. If there were a varsity team for it back in the 90s, I'd be team captain. I'm not even kidding.

August 23, 2014 - Day 23.

We were Subic-bound that morning but what really put a huge smile on my face is the fact that I was on the last hole thingy of my watch which meant I lost another half inch on my wrist. Yes, it is a big deal.

August 24, 2014 - Day 24

Being roomies with my favorite tita over that long weekend. Does positive things to both me and mi Bebe.

August 25, 2014 - Day 25

Bonding with the baby girl while looking for the perfect baro't saya for her after a long drive from Subic to Manila. I'll always cherish these moments because I know how rare they'll become once she becomes a teenager.

August 29, 2014 - Day 29.

I have to write this part in bullet form 'cause quite a lot of things happened that I was really thankful for for that day:

• Brianna's Buwan ng Wika culminating activity.
• Brianna dancing to Mamang Sorbetero - although she cried halfway through - and she actually finished it with a smile on her face.
• The 3 of us winning the Paluan ng Palayok contest.
• The trip to the South.
• SM Southmall-ing and meeting up with Kat.
• Actually shopping for clothes and shoes.
• First night sleeping over at my favorite tita's place in BF.

August 30, 2014 - Day 30

Again, I'm gonna have to write this in bullet form because I was really happy that day:

• Woke up in the South. I mean, that's got to be something, right?
• Went to a birthday party at Fun Ranch in Westgate.
• SO. MANY. FREE. BIES.
• Visited Town after 21984765187 years.
• We won the jackpot on this particular ticket machine! First time for me who's been in the (Timezone) game for a long, long time!
• Favorite tita looked after Brianna so I can drink. Haha!

August 31, 2014 - Day 31.

This day marks one of the most thankful days I have ever experienced in my life. The Lord is so good! He always, always, always keeps us safe. He never fails. Grabe sobrang thankful ko lang talaga sa araw na'to. I don't think I'll be able to move on from this.

September 6, 2014 - Day 37.

These guys decided they wanted to travel to Pasig. Always thankful for that!