I can't believe I got kilig over this.

I was watching the latest episode of How I Met Your Mother last night and the last shot of the episode is this:

I know there's nothing to get kilig over but I had this weird thought that maybe Ted's apartment is located right next to where Central Perk used to be:

That's when I got kilig! #notlame

Playing God.

I've been playing The Sims since I was in highschool, when it first came out and I still do now. I love the thought of getting to play God to computer-generated people and the fact that I can make-believe some parts of my life using those characters. For instance, I have this house in The Sims Freeplay on the tablet that has me, a guy and a baby girl as its residents.

The "Ale" character is a romantic who's a loving stay-at-home mom and knows how to sew. She also bakes. Yes, I am a romantic - di lang halata sa blog entries ko lately - and I am a loving mom. As for the sewing, well, I am a frustrated creative/artsy person and among the hobbies available in the Freeplay version, this is the closest thing to being creative. And yes, I would love to learn how to bake but first I have to have the patience for it.

The guy character is a rocker and he works in the city hall. He also loves to cuddle with the baby girl and is always interested in whatever the "Ale" character has to say. He also cooks. Yes, I like my men looking like rockers even though I am a self-professed ghetto kid. I'd put the name of this specific character here but it's such a giveaway as to who College Guy is. (It's not his actual name.)

Lastly, this cutie patootie girl is the "Brianna" character. She needs to eat all the time, loves dancing and is very malambing which is practically my daughter.

The house sorta looks like how I dreamed my house would look - yes, no second floor - and it would be great if there's a dog in the house even if I'm dead scared of one because Brianna really loves dogs.

(I don't know how to end this post so I'm just going to let it hang like this.)

One of the worst dreams I've had to date.

I tweeted this morning that I had a really bad dream that I didn't get to see the end of but good thing is, I've noted everything. Although, of course, there are some details I didn't get.

Anyway, can someone help me interpret it? It freaked the hell out of me when I woke up that I actually took the time to remember all the details I can the minute I started breathing normally again. I downloaded a dream interpreting app to understand my dream last night but it didn't have everything...

Note to self: If ever I don't end up with the guy I'm with now, I will never ever date anyone named Mike or Danny.

And yes, that's a The Simpsons Tapped Out icon on the upper left hand side of the photo.

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I am not really a runner; meaning I do not run competitively. I run on my own in cemeteries in the morning, I run with my sister during fun runs and I run away from flying cockroaches who think they're pretty little butterflies but actually aren't. Having said that, I've done very little to boost my run because, well, I don't really need it.

Photo from Outbreak BGC last July 28, 2012

There are times, though, that I'd want to literally run an extra mile and this usually happens when I run in memorial parks when I think I see shadows running with me. I psyche myself out every now and then to "keep things interesting" (I do this whenever I get the urge to walk instead). Hehe. Anyway, this is the part where I do something (that makes me look) crazy. What do I do? Well, first, I switch to the Party Party playlist in my iPod and put it on full blast.

Next, I start singing the song. Yes, while running and yes, it makes me pant the first time I did it but believe it or not, this is how I learned how to breathe correctly. I don't get that nasty pain on either of my sides anymore, too. I'm not entirely sure if that's the one responsible for that but I stopped having them when I sing while I run so I keep on doing it. Plus, it gets my mind off of those shadows I think I see during my morning runs.

And last, I dance. Yes, I dance while running. It probably looks weird - I haven't seen myself do it - because I get weird glances from other people. I used to just pace my run according to the beat of the song but when it got boring, I started swaying my hips and raising and waving my hands in the air like I just don't currrrr... FYI, that's when I got the weird glances from the people who see me. Wow. Shocker, right? Haha!

My way's not that crazy, if you ask me, but it sure does make me look like a loon. Not that I'm proud... I don't care, though. At least it gets my mind off of the ghost stories I make up in my head while running in an almost empty cemetery so early in the morning. Each one of us has a different (read: weird) way of boosting our runs so don't judge! Haha! Adidas, though, is coming up with ways for us to boost our runs further.

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Holding down my spot and I'm good.

So, I know I've been a pain in the positive thinker's ass these past few days especially last February 13 when I decided to go on a depression spree and I want to apologize for that. I mean, I want to believe that it's somewhat healthy to give yourself the reality check you so desperately need and a (yearly?) dose of self-pity is inevitable with reality check, if you ask me.

Anyway, I want to believe that I'm doing much better now. I don't know. I just woke up this morning thinking that I really needed to get out of the rut I am in and all of a sudden, I did. I think it's just the Valentine's season that got me all riled up. Now that it's all over with, I think I can start doing the things I've been doing before again...

Side note: This post's title is inspired by this song, which by the way is perfect for me right now.

Desperation Day

Today is Desperation Day as per Barney Stinson (yes, I am deleting my How I Met Your Mother folder soon...or maybe I'm just gonna transfer it to the hard drive) and I am so, so, so sad it's driving me crazy but not just because it's Valentine's day tomorrow. Well, that's part of it and I can't believe I'm becoming one of those girls but mostly because I can feel everything falling apart. I am still trapped in that toxic, dead-end relationship that, for some reason, I cannot leave. I am still unemployed despite all the effort I've been giving job hunting for the past 2 months now. My savings account is almost empty despite my many, many attempts to save money. I am still living with my parents which isn't really a bad thing when you think about it but when my mom starts telling me that I need to get a job (I know, mom, no need to rub it in!), I just want to pack my and Brianna's bags and flee. But oh, since I can't spend another cent, I have to stay.

(Damn it! There! She just did it again!)

I am desperate. Desperate for a breather... For time off... For change.

Alak nga jan!

Ash Wednesday-related question.

If I've been abstaining for the past year months, will it be okay for me to do it now since I haven't been doing it for a long, long, looooooong time?

Samsung Galaxy Tab 2

I finally got myself Brianna a tablet last Sunday. I got us a Samsung Galaxy Tab 2. It was a quick buy since it was on a 12-month payment scheme with 0% interest in SM Appliance Center in Megamall and I bought it at a day I didn't actually expect to buy it (I still didn't have the actual money to buy it, hence the credit card purchase).

I can finally get it off my mind... and stop posting about it on my blog.

And yes, it has to have a pink case, okay.

#65. I'm really bad with break-ups.

I've officially gone anti-romantic...

(Yes, my 1000th post is still about my emotions. And yes, it's still negative.)

I was just on Facebook and saw a status posted by someone asking a girl out on a date on Valentine's on our college org's Facebook group page. Okay, that's not so bad... I mean, the group just has, like, 100 members but still! I found it too cheesy and unnecessary... Why did he have to ask in a rather public forum? Can't he do it personally, without giving everyone else a good show, in this case, a good read? More importantly, does he not know that there are other women in the page who don't have dates on Valentine's day - even if they're supposedly in a relationship - who can read the thread?! Ugh! So insensitive...

God. I've never thought - even for just a second - that I could hate Valentine's Day so much...

Migraine.

"Nahihilo, nalilito... Asan  ba'ko sa'yo? Aasa ba'ko sa'yo?"

I really love Moonstar88's Migraine. I love those three lines especially because they capture everything that I want to ask two guys in (?) my life right now but the questions, of course, are of different context.

Anyway, the whole song, I want to ask one of the two guys. Go figure.

Chemistry and Timing

After watching and re-watching How I Met Your Mother millions of times while waiting for the new episodes to air, I realized just now that I can totally relate to Robin in the season premiere of season 7. The chemistry, the timing, the advice... Everything! I sorta died a little while I re-watched her tell Barney how she feels as she watches Barney say the exact same words to somebody else. I mean, I know how that feels! (Sorta.)
I hope what I/we have don't have to go through the Tick Tick Tick episode, though, because there's a deal that has been made and it is ending exactly a week from now and I still haven't made a decision and it's killing me inside because I know what I want but I'm so scared to make a move and I don't know why.
(I might be assuming things at this point but that's how I've been reading the signs. If I'm reading them wrong, well, sucks for me.)
But, yeah. I hope the scene in the Splitsville episode in season 8 between Barney, Robin and Nick happens, too, because that scene got me smiling like a fool while watching it. Plus, I am not the one cutting it off with "Nick".
I am watching too much How I Met Your Mother, aren't I?
P.S. I posted the video because I am currently LSS-ing on the song plus I love the dance. Pang-first dance ng newly weds. (Mental note: I need to dance this with my groom on our wedding reception.)

"If you have chemistry, you only need one other thing: Timing. But timing’s a bitch."

-Robin Scherbatsky, How I Met Your Mother Season 7, Episode 1

Amats

I was browsing through my Facebook feed this morning when I stumbled upon Rico Blanco's Facebook fan page and saw this song on the page's wall:


I honestly didn't listen to the song when he released it last year and now that I've heard and understood the song, I can't believe I waited this long to listen to it. Okay, maybe the whole Fiesto Bandido persona scared me and I love, love, love the Your Universe album that I don't want anything to ruin that Rico Blanco for me but because of this song, I am giving Galactik Fiestamatik a chance.
Obvious naman diba ang amats ko sa'yo kakaiba...

I'd probably say this to you if you stalked me...

"You're my Dahmer which makes you a Dobler."

-Robin Scherbatsky, How I Met Your Mother Season 8, Episode 15

Happy Birthday, Baby!

Hi Honey!

Happy, happy birthday! You're two years old now and I would just like you to know that you are the best thing that happened to my life. I know in a few years you might get disappointed at me - although, I hope you won't - and the decisions I've made but know that all the things I did, I do and I will be doing are all for you.

I hope you grow up to be a good and responsible person who's strong, healthy and loving. I wish you all the best in life and know that I am always here with you, every step of the way.

I love you so much, Baby. Thank you so much for the happiness you've given me and teaching me how to love.

Happy birthday again, Hon!

Love,
Mom

Chandler Bing!

I know, I know. Whenever I marathon a TV series, my blog gets bombarded by stuff about that show but you can't do anything about it. I tend to rave about whatever it is I am hooked to. Right now, I'm watching FRIENDS so here's another post related to it.

I don't understand why most people love Ross while Chandler is there, being all lovable and awesome. I'm halfway through the series now and I just love, love, love him. I love how he treats his friends (especially Joey), how he treats his boss (yes, he may seem like a kiss ass but please don't pretend you don't do it yourself) and how he treats Monica (I love the dirty little secret thing when they started out, okay?) but most especially, I love his last name! Bing!

Another thing I love about Chandler Bing is the fact that Matthew Perry plays the character. I love the facial expressions!

I don't think anyone could've pulled those faces off better than him.

Plus the Chandler Bing dance! Oh. My. God. I don't think anybody else can dance it the way Matthew Perry dances it.

Oh. My. God. Just oh. My. God.

P.S. I love Janice Goralnik, too!

Kaya pala I've been craving for you something.

Yes. This.

Desperadoooow...

I did something I'm not proud of and now, I don't think I will be able to look straight into certain people's eyes anymore.

I should really start with this detox thing. It's been some 5-6 years now, it's about time I got it outta my system...

#FebruaryWishes

Caution: This could get ugly real fast so...

It's February and since #FebruaryWishes is trending on Twitter right this very moment, I thought I might as well join the bandwagon... but not really since I will be doing my February Wishes list here on the blog instead in Twitter.

• To get a decent enough greeting on the anniversary if we're still actually together because I don't know if we still are.
• Finally land a job. I've sent out like a hundred applications since November last year. I really need this.
• Pool enough money for Brianna's birthday celebration on the 5th. Not like I need a lot of money because we're not exactly throwing a huge party for her but I currently don't have a job so...
• Pool enough money for Brianna's Kindle Fire.
• Go out on a date on Valentine's Day because it's been 4 years since I last went on a date during Valentine's. Coffee or a couple of beers with a friend/s will definitely be enough. I just don't want to be that sad girl on Twitter being all bitter during Valentine's Day.
• Get my positivity back. I don't know where it went but I really need to get it back because everything falls into place when it's with me.

So, there. Yeah. Told you it was gonna get ugly...

Happy February.

Edit (February 1, 2013 2:37pm): I might be crossing out one of those wishes one of these days as God, the greatest provider of all, has given me a solid lead to a job and on the first day of February, too! All my soon-to-be boss needs are the signatures of all the important people in the office tapos pirmahan na ng kontrata. Finally! Thank You, Lord!